addressing your assumptions about me...

i'm an immigrant girl we always feel  like we got to work work work work  are you Muslim slash relligious you're already going spicy i think   the cookie collab traumatized you yeah  to be honest it was a little traumatizing  you don't know how to drive a car now why would you assume that about   me cuz I'm a woman sometimes man you just want  to go clubbing with your friends want to shake a   little ass i can't do that it's going to wind up  on TikTok hi everyone welcome back to my channel   it's been a minute and today I have a very  special video it is one that I haven't done   in a while both a sitdown video and it's also  an assumptions about me video it's interesting   because I've been making content for so many years  that as I've grown older I feel like your guys's   assumptions and impressions of me have changed  and also new people come and find my channel   so I want to answer what you guys are wondering  and we have Broden behind the camera and we will   be taking turns reading your assumptions about  me and I'm gonna answer them hopefully not if   they're crazy they're probably going to be crazy okay assumption about you you're busy every day   and have no free time you just lay in  bed do nothing you are a workaholic you   guys can't see but he pointed the finger  at me i felt a bit of shame i won't lie   you kind of right but but let me clarify it's  not that I have no time to lay in bed it's that   if I laid in bed and did nothing I would just  have so much productivity anxiety i did not   wish to be built this way or born this way i'm an  immigrant girl we always feel like we got to work   work work work and also I'm so lucky to be my own  boss as a content creator and doing what I do so   technically I do have the time to do nothing  because I could just schedule my own day and   decide to do nothing but then when I do that I  end up filling my time with random other things   creativity workshops talking to people on my team  going out with someone i'm just someone who loves   to be doing stuff though I have realized being  a workaholic is not a good thing and I've gotten   so much better at managing it so instead I let  myself be a doaholic so I'm just doing I'm kind   of doing things sometimes it's personal friend  things sometimes it's work things and I force   myself to take Sundays off of work and that's  been a beautiful balance for me you know the   Lord's day all right I think you pick the next ah yes my turn oh I had to include this one   you'd move to Paris in a heartbeat  if the opportunity presented itself i also wanted to pick this one not just because  French part of the audience might be wondering   all of my friends are wondering too every time  I come back from Paris everyone's like "Are   you moving?" And I'm like "What do you what do  you mean guys is everything like Are you moving   are you moving right now please just just let us  know let's take a breather everyone." Like you're   looking at like French villas out there huh that legit honestly I am super open to moving to Paris   but it's because for the last couple years I  just have been very open to living elsewhere   that's not just LA cuz as you guys know I was  born in Morocco i lived most of my life in Canada   and then I moved to LA for the majority of my 20s  but I'm like I don't know if I'm meant to be here   forever i want to have an arc or an era where I'm  elsewhere actually two of the top contenders are   New York and Paris if there was a good enough  opportunity I just need some friends who will   go with me um or a husband but like I think it's  easier to move than to get a husband right right  maybe I'll just go for a season like  3 months yes maybe maybe yes are you   Muslim/religious oh oh my god you're already  going spicy right at the beginning it's crazy  give him something right at the beginning yeah all right i think if you've watched my content   long enough you've probably pieced together like  I'm a pretty spiritual person i do believe in God   i think I just don't tout a religious label not  because I don't want to or not because I think   religion is anything to be ashamed of but it's  just because for a lot of my life I feel like   I've had to be like the representative of female  streamers and I'm so kind of afraid to affiliate   with the religion and then people think that  I have to be like a perfect role model of that   religion like no one's perfect everyone's  a sinner you know what I mean i feel like   spirituality and faith is such a sacred thing  like my faith is between me and God and I don't   think it's another aspect of my life that I need  to have other people overanalyze so I feel like I   just talk about it here and there and I'll open  up more about it when I feel the time is right well said oh my turn i keep forgetting I'm a part of this  i think the cookie collab traumatized you and  there's no way you'll do another collab like it   yeah to be honest it was a little traumatizing  and I don't want to say that in the way of like   I didn't do anything wrong i'm perfect i'm a  victim not at all like that but mainly just   anytime you are in the public eye and you  have a big scandal of sorts that is like   like a like a micro trauma it kind of  makes you afraid to do certain things   i feel like now that it's been 2 years and I've  been able to really think about it think about   the mistakes I made i've moved from like "Oh  my god keep me away from those kinds of things   creator brands are so hard and everybody judges  it too much and this and that to now I'm back   in a place where I'm a little bit more confident  in the things that I've learned and I feel like   you know what I shouldn't just say no to  any collab like that but I should really   learn from the past and know when would be a  right time to do it and how to do it right or   at least better and just how to better manage  all aspects of it so yes you are correct for   the first half but the second half never say  never i'm open but just a million times more   selective now this isn't on the list but you want  me to just hit hit you with an assumption oh sure  you could Yeah  do anything you want oh go on  if you wanted to start a b business in like X  field you could just go do it or like if you   wanted to have a conversation with Michelle Obama  you could just do it like you can do whatever you   want i don't think I can do whatever I want  i do think I am in a very good spot to do a   variety of things michelle Obama actually  any Obama hit him line i think the last   few months I've really learned that I have more  opportunity at my fingertips than I thought I did   like sometimes I'll talk to my friends about  something but I think this person is so cool   blah blah blah and they'll be like "Have you  DM' them?" And I I literally I forget you could   like I'm a creator too with a platform and to  me platforms are almost like portfolios i'm   like "You know what i could just DM someone and  ask to collab sometimes those things are beyond   my mind because I consume content and you  know dayto-day I'm I'm just demon day-to-day   like that's how I perceive the world i just view  myself as another person in the audience." Right   the other aspect of what you said like I could do  anything i sometimes struggle with that i'm like I   could go back to full-time streaming i could be  a YouTuber i could just post videos every day i   could do short form i could do interviews i could  do this i could do that and sometimes I get stuck   in wanting to do so many different things and also  mentally I get stuck in envisioning a future where   I'm focusing on any one of these things because  I find them all so interesting being a jack of   all trades has its upsides and downsides anyways  I don't even know how to answer that assumption   to be honest i could do a lot of different things  i don't know if I could interview Michelle Obama   but you know what i feel like I could wait you  know I'm going to the White House next week  okay well wait you were cooking but Michelle Obama  ain't there anymore i'm a few years too late sadly   this is so random someone was like "You've blocked  an ex before." Girl I don't think I've ever   blocked anyone in my personal life to be honest  actually it's funny because sometimes they block   me and I'm like I must be popping up on your feed  too much no for me I love to be on good terms with   anyone in my life whoever it is I really try to  be on good terms with everyone i rarely unfollow   anyone i don't really block people the only  people I block are the like randoms that harass me  this is kind of on topic you've been  in the spotlight long enough that mean   comments and criticism don't phase you the truth of the matter is no that's not   true they still do phase me but the other truth  of the matter is like 98% of it doesn't phase me   here's something I learned cuz I've been going  to therapy for years for me to become someone   that is never phased by criticism or harassment  or comments especially mean ones I would need   to literally be a sociopath or a narcissist i've  actually asked my therapist "Can you try to make   me more narcissistic?" He's like "I don't think  we should we shouldn't do that sweetie." At the   end of the day I'm always going to be human so  there's going to be some things that get to me   but I've been online long enough that 98% of it  doesn't but also every time I read something that   maybe hits a little I try to really think  about why what does that say about this   particular thing they're commenting on usually it  reflects something deeper that I should work on  i feel like a lot of creators have the mindset  of like you can get so many like really happy   good comments and it's like "Oh thanks." But then  you get that one that's like just kind of new a   little too much and that's one that sticks in your  mind for the rest of the day you mother do any   comments get to you does anyone ever say anything  mean about you like I feel like there's no way  i wouldn't say so for me it's more so like  if they saw through something like if if   I posted something and they were like knew  enough of like the process to know like oh   you probably did this because this happened  huh it's like damn you got me but it's also   kind of like a It's like a Okay well you know  your stuff all right yeah I almost applaud   them as long as they're like not too mean about it oh this one I thought was really cute someone said   "You still get nervous before big collabs." Yeah  actually recently I've been taking nervousness as   a sign that I'm doing something that I really  want to do or that I'm really excited about   i feel like nerves is just one step away from  excitement like pure genuine excitement short   good answer yes and I love it and I think  if you're nervous about something maybe that   means you should go towards it and that  it's a step in the right direction yeah  this is an assumption that I have you don't know how to drive a car now   why would you assume that about me cuz I'm a woman no I think it's because I've just always seen you   bloopers and like never Uh uh do you own a car  that's a cra We're learning a lot about  broadening here this video actually isn't   about me assumptions I have about you huh why did I even ask  yeah no I can't drive okay hear me out though  it's It's not It's not that I can't drive like   I could like put me in a car my life depended  on it beep beep fast and Furious 7 i would be   driving that hoe i learned how to drive in Canada  you take the test to get your light no permit  you take the test which I aced by the way i killed  that test did a bunch of driving lessons learned   how to drive i remember feeling like driving is  so therapeutic i loved it but also I lived in a   small town roads were kind of empty so chill and  then I took my test passed by the way that's right   you thought I was gonna say I didn't pass and  that's why I can't drive no got my license but   in Canada your license is called like a G1 and  that expires after a couple years and then you   have to get your G2 which is the full license  where you can drive on highways I think anyways   I moved to LA became a full-time streamer and  the rest is history and my license expired this   one's fun you're super picky when it comes to  dating yes but because I don't I don't date i   look for a pre-arrangement to marriage and that  already rules out like 80% of people in this city   i feel like everybody would say that they're  picky when it comes to dating no wouldn't you   agree cuz everybody has their own type like if you  weren't picky wouldn't that be a kind of red flag  exactly imagine someone who's like "No I'm not  picky." Anyone will do well actually I've met a   few of those we got to cut the tape i'm not picky  in terms of like what someone does or honestly how   someone looks like I don't have a picky type in  that regard but I'm picky in marriage first my   lifestyle is pretty particular i'm not super into  night life and a lot of people more so art which   is fine but it's more so you know I want someone  whose lifestyles is similar to mine and who has   similar goals what about you Broden you picky oh I'm picky  actually it's so true broden is one of the  few people in our friend group where I'm like   "Wait like you're such a worthwhile candidate in  terms of dating but you don't be dating much."   Okay so I'm I'm picking this one because  I've considered this as well for yourself  for myself oh okay  uh you wish you could have your anonymity back ah oh my god there have been moments where I feel   that way i wouldn't say it's my overwhelming  sentiment in regards to what I do because to   be honest if someone comes up to me in public I'm  like "Yipp hello la thank god I'm an extrovert."   I think if I was really introverted then the  answer would be like super yes but for me I   just have moments like that for example when  I want to go out looking bummy then I'm like   "Fuck if someone recognizes me then they're going  to take a photo and I'm going to look fugly." You   know what I mean this was more back in the day but  like sometimes I'll legit just be on a walk and   I've had literally like girl like a 13-year-old  boy on a skateboard skate by me and go Pokemon   like and literally it'll be like a jump scare  what sometimes man you just want to go clubbing   with your friends want to shake a little ass i  can't do that it's going to wind up on TikTok   maybe that would be fun actually no I guess for  me personally the upsides are worth the lack   of anonymity i love what I do i feel very lucky i remember asking you a question like years ago   that was like a portal shows up right in front  of you it could take you to a magical world but   like your life as you know it is gone do you walk  through it and you were actually like no my life's   pretty good i'm such a freak optimizer that I  already know I've optimized my life to suit me   so well and so now if I were to jump to any other  life or any other part of my life I'd be like I'm   either working towards the optimization or I mean  being further along wouldn't be too bad but I'm so   happy with it right now like my number one thing  in life always is just to be happy with whatever   situation I'm at so I'm glad past me felt the  same way too let's go oh I've got a good one for   you you don't like streaming anymore and looking  for any excuse to quit and then they added three   heartbroken emojis which like wow i felt those but  happy to report a completely incorrect assumption   like actually could not be further from the truth  funnily enough I actually feel like the less that   I stream the more that I like streaming because  then it makes it so that every single time that   I stream it's something that I really want to  do and I really really enjoy and I think as   long as I keep a healthy relationship with it  I'm not forcing myself i'm not doing things I   don't want that's actually what makes it stay  as something that I like to do also I've had   some new friends in my life and sometimes I've  either like brought them on stream or they'll be   at my place while I'm streaming things like that  and a common thread amongst all of them is they   say like if they overhear me streaming or they  hang out with me after stream they're like "Wait   I feel like you were having a lot of fun." And  I'm sometimes it like shocks me i'm like "Wait   you're right i was having fun wait I do really  like to do that huh i love streaming and I feel   so lucky to do it whenever I want and to just  be in a place in life where I feel comfortable   in all forms of content doing what I want when I  want this one's a special uh celebrity question  we have a shout out yep so this is an assumption   from our little friend Disguised Toast you have  lots of close friends but don't have a best friend  that would have been a great assumption two  years ago let me tell you why it's so true   for all of my life as I've explained like I'm so  extroverted i want to be friends with everyone   and when I become friends with someone I am  so fascinated by every aspect of them tell   me about your childhood traumas tell me about  what you like or dislike what are your hobbies   how do you feel about money about work about  this about that like I feel like I love to truly   embrace all aspects of someone and I just find  human beings so interesting so I get really really   close to people but he's right i've really had  trouble in my life having one best friend like one   person that you text every day or you text very  frequently i'll have phases where I'm closer to   one person but I've never felt like you are my one  best friend and I think the reason why is because   I always had a little bit of trouble feeling  like I belong and the reason for that is my   identity i think sorry that sounds kooky what  I mean by identity is you know I'm a Moroccan   Middle Eastern Arab person who was born there  who grew up in Canada who speaks these different   languages culturally in terms of morals and  values i I would sometimes overlap with some   people but I never felt like close close and  I couldn't explain why and for my whole life I   thought it was a me problem i'm like girl maybe  you're just weird in the brain why you know and   that's why you're not that close over the last  year I have gotten so incredibly close to this   girl named Foia and I feel like yeah over the last  year we've become like not just best friends but   like sisters she's also Moroccan she also grew up  in Canada she also studied engineering she also   moved to LA we just have so much in common we  feel like two peas in a pod and she's the first   person that I'm like "Oh my god like you can be  my like best friend best friend." Or like I feel   like you're my best friend like my sister  so anyways Toast is very correct but I'm so   happy to report that might not be the case anymore i would say I'm similar to you in that um the way   you described it of like having kind of phases or  chapters of like being really close with someone   that feels like more akin to me mhm  this is such like a non-answer  i would I would say I have like  a couple best friends exactly i've always been like that yeah  i have six to seven best friends yeah exactly  there are people in your life you would have cut  out already by now if it weren't for their value   to your career actually reading this I was like  "Yes you're totally correct." I kind of don't even   have shame in saying that because I've learned why  that's the case i think over time and you know we   have so many friends in the industry i think it's  such a big deal sometimes to cut a friendship or a   work relationship just because you don't get along  with someone or because you don't like them and   often times even the whole like fallout or public  perception aspect of that isn't even worth it but   I've also found myself sometimes forgiving people  too much just because we might be in proximity   when it comes to work relationships and I thought  that I was being forgiving but also sometimes   you're not really respecting yourself if you're  forgiving someone just cuz you work together   just cuz you're close publicly or otherwise or  whatever right however what that's also taught me   is to some level I'm really glad that I never cut  people off just cuz we had a little fight or we   bickered or we didn't get along perfectly because  a lot of these people that maybe had value to my   career over time we got over those disagreements  we got over those fights we got over those issues   and it's almost like in a way felt like family  like you know you might fight with your family   but you're connected in some way so you you can't  you kind of can't just cut them out but then long   term you're like wait this is someone who's been  there for me for years i've been there for them   for years and there's a lot of value in those  relationships too and it teaches you that you   don't have to cut a friendship off because of  one issue that's something you might move past   and then wind up being way better friends down  the line so it served as a really good lesson and   you are correct though there are some people that  if over time I'm like "Oh we keep having issues."   Those people at this point in my life girl bye  but if it's a small thing we kind of work together   sometimes you let it slide you're rich and make  millions a month but it actually was in French damn does that kind of sounds better in French huh for starters no i actually don't know if I've  ever made millions in a month i am very lucky to   be quite financially stable but that's because  you know I've been making content so long and   a lot of those years I spent just saving saving  saving saving saving saving and so over time it   accumulated but it was never like that much in  a month and especially not now i really tried   to get into a headsp space especially you know as  an immigrant so much of my life was like I need   to prove myself i need to make money i need to pay  off my parents for their sacrifices i need to pay   for them take care of them that was my attitude  for so long and that's why I saved for so long   and tried to work really hard but I really had to  do undo a little bit of that wiring because then   you feel like money is such a scarce thing it's  something to chase after and I feel like money is   an incredible and important resource but I think  it's not a good master like it's not a good thing   to be a slave to it's not a good thing to chase  mindlessly so now that I've saved up a fair bit   the mindless chasing of accumulating wealth that's  not my purpose or that's not what excites me so I   just focus on like doing enough sponsorships or  making enough money to pay for my employees pay   for the things that I want to do things like  that as opposed to I need to make millions in   a month that's crazy that's very hard obviously  admirable but yeah that's sadly never been the   case for me never say never in the future who  knows but I'm not I'm not that level no thank   you guys so much for watching i hope you enjoyed  if you did make sure to like the video let me know   in the comments if you think I should do another  one or if you have any assumptions that you have   about me now that you know more about me we didn't  even go through half the questions so genuinely if   you guys are interested enough in another I'm  so down to do it and thank you so much Broden   for helping me do this thanks for having me thank you thank you wait is there anything   you want to shout out come on spot down below   yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah go live in the temple of out  hell yeah thank you guys so much i'll  see you in the next one bizu bye [Music]