pov: you're pokimane (new apartment, breakup, life update)

hello today's a very special day he is so cute he's just a bean honestly my days consist of a whole lot of actually speaking of Love um I'm going through a [Music] breakup good morning allow me to reintroduce myself hey it's been a minute I know I I know oh not a minute it's been a few months um yeah I mean you know minute kind of like a a euphemism okay I know it's been a little while I miss you guys did you miss me how you been how are the kids how's the wife me well you know some ups and downs you know how it be actually I moved into this new apartment which I'll show you throughout the course of this video this is my new vanity room which I love I spent a fair bit of time trying to set this place up the way that I really love like and want and need for my life I guess and I'm excited to share that with you guys I still live alone I mean aside from my cats does that count honestly I do feel like I live with my cats and I don't mind it sometimes it's lonely though but that's life I still live in LA I don't know if that'll be the case for long though but I do really love the friends that I have in LA and I'm so grateful for them I spent my birthday last month well I guess when you see this maybe a month and a half ago I I spent my birthday with some of my closest friends and I wanted to buy them all a bunch of gifts cuz I love giving gifts like that's what makes me so happy so I wanted to be happy on my birthday I was like I don't even want anything from you guys just let me give you stuff so I'll show you a little bit of that hello today's a very special day I'm going shopping with Kim my assistant love her very much today I'm buying birthday gifts for my friends for my birthday but anyways let's go that's looking cute oh cute yeah whenever I go shopping for a friend the best way to know kind of what to get them is L to look at their Instagram beforehand see what kind of aesthetic they usually have what color jewelry and bags they usually have she has a lot of Gold bags so maybe she doesn't like silver as much those kinds of details you sometimes don't know so just like review your friends's Instagram before shopping for them two down five to go yes [Applause] I got Kim her first $20 La smoothie let's get your reaction it's not like Boba no girl it's not like Boba wait oh it's actually really good what wo it's really yummy but is it worth $20 you like it yeah would you wear it I would yeah we'll get it for you then really yeah congrats on your graduation oh my God thank you po Jamie yes and then the black one for you let's go on a little morning walk and keep yapping cheers nothing makes me happy quite like a morning walk and a matcha like sometimes I feel like it's all I need and I need it every day I brought you guys to my favorite Park I remember not too long ago I came to the park there was this couple here and they were sad and they were just like making out not like like they were on top of each other like they were basically like 69ing at the park and for some reason that's a really fond memory to me for some reason I'm like you know what they're probably so in love like was it appropriate for public consumption maybe not at the park like there are babies here then again babies don't even know what the [ __ ] going on I don't know where this train of thought is going but regardless actually speaking of Love um I'm going through a breakup that is a cookie beans transition bye okay I've never really talked about a breakup before and because I don't really like date people in the public eye it doesn't really feel like it makes sense to either but I felt like this one might be interesting to discuss for a couple reasons ah where shall I go with this frankly this breakup feels different than past ones you know like it's not my first time it's not my first time in this Rodeo but when you're in your like mid to late 20s and when you start envisioning your life with someone speaking about marriage and kids and like really being in that head space and planning for your future and then all of that kind of dissolves you know it's a lot to process I also feel like sometimes it just makes me feel so much better to get things off my chest with you guys or to express it and then sometimes people are like oh I totally get it or that resonates with me or I feel you or this is what helped so anyways if you are or have been going through a breakup just know one you're so not alone for some reason I feel like it's breakup season like I know so many people that have broken up two time heals all and you're kind of supposed to feel like [ __ ] for a little while so it's going to be okay and I also felt like it might be nice to talk about because who I date usually isn't in the public eye so it's kind of just like why not share my perspective of things or like what I'm going through especially if it doesn't hurt anyone kind of thing I feel like for the last year or two I've been intentionally keeping to myself a bit more just because I've been online for so long and I've been so in the public eye for so long I wanted just a couple years to myself a couple years to be more private things like that but now honestly I kind of really miss you guys I miss sharing more of my life and I still find a lot of joy in that I'm trying to get out of my shell a little bit more especially now that I'm single sorry it's not gross to be single it's gross to [ __ ] date in LA there is no one to date here except like the dogs in that Park the dogs in that Park are better than the [ __ ] dogs out in the dating world if you know I'm saying like anyways that's a concern for another day right now in life my concerns and priorities are with myself let's head back home that was a really annoying shot to set up I hope you guys appreciate it what do I want to wear today sweatpants leggings both neither these stretchy sweatpants so it's like you're wearing sweatpants and leggings in one top toity dop simple top I'm not really going out today so I don't need anything crazy y who's this they haven't seen you in so long say hi say hi anything that's crazy cuz usually she can't shut the Fu up to be honest kind of like me I'm wondering like how much I should show you guys of my new apartment this is my living room my dinner table which seats just me my kitchen show you guys more in detail as we go let's grab some food for now just a girl in her meal prep what can I say today we're having veggies chicken rice I'll be right back wow it heats up here's another face you guys haven't seen in a little while say hi B he is so cute he just a bean these things have maintained my sanity for years legit I love them so much I would die for you anyways yeah okay mix it up mix it up then huh listen I know that this sauce comes with it but what I really want to do is put some Sriracha in there I've just been obsessed with Sriracha recently I don't know why it took me this long to have a Sriracha kick but she's here and she's not going anywhere oh good meal prep healthy meal is so important to me I will always be willing to spend on food also I've been gyming I'm really proud because I feel like for the last couple years Health has been at the top of my list of priorities and I've implemented a lot of pretty healthy habits even though I'm not perfect with it even though sometimes when I travel or [ __ ] happens and habits can take a pause or be on the back burner for a bit regardless it's something that I keep coming back to so that makes me really happy and proud of myself I work with the trainer sometimes sometimes I go the gym alone either way it's a good time know one food is show good to makx you want to dance I've also been taking Arabic lessons which is so cool I know the Moroccan Arabic dialect but that's such like a niche dialect like non- Moroccans wouldn't understand it so I'm trying to learn a more common dialect which is called Leones I think like Lebanese sort of and just be able to converse a little bit or even like make short little videos in I think that would be so cool and it's something I've always wanted to do like my whole life except when I was really young and my parents forced me into language lessons do but aside from that I have always wanted to get better at Arabic so I'm doing that now and honestly those Arabic lessons make me feel so fulfilled like I don't know why I'm so proud of myself after I do them and then maraba at least that one's easy could you maybe give me an example sentence in both of those dialects me so if you've been thinking about learning a language especially if it's a part of your culture or your family but you're unsure take this as a sign to do it like please please do it okay I'm more friend this [ __ ] this [ __ ] another health related thing not too long ago was diagnosed with PCOS which is a pretty large umbrella term I would say like people have PCOS in a lot of different ways they have different symptoms they have different everything for me personally it just means my hormones can kind of be in balanced really easily if I'm stressed like if I stress or if I'm not taking care of myself really well then I don't get my period or my period is irregular hormonal stuff like that just like learning about the symptoms how to manage them how to manage my health in general has been such a journey such an up and down journey and not really easy because it's something that people didn't really used to diagnose before so I'm learning a lot and I wanted to take the time to learn on my own before I spoke to you guys about this and I think it wasn't easy for me to initially because having a diagnosis of anything can feel so scary like you can feel like oh my God something is wrong with me but in reality girl everybody got something for starters and secondly it's good because you can better learn how to take care of yourself and how to prevent certain issues I try to see any diagnosis as more of an answer than a problem it's not easy but let me show you guys guys what else my days consist of honestly my days consist of a whole lot of this being sat in my stream room answering emails answering messages answering my managers agents just all this stuff but I'm so lucky and so grateful and I think sometimes it can be easy to get swept up in like the hate or the stress or the negatives but actually when I focus on the good [ __ ] I love my life I love the people that support me I kind of love this [ __ ] I'm trying to keep my head on straight and I still do be streaming sometimes I know there was a period of time where people thought like I quit streaming entirely there were some clickbait articles but I also did a podcast episode where I was talking about my twitch contract being up and how I would be kind of dabbling in different things so people took that as me quitting or like me saying quitting like the contract but the contract doesn't mean I'm going to stop streaming and harly and as you guys probably see I still love to stream like a couple times a week and aside from that I just post on socials or work on other things or do podcast stuff oh I'm so excited to announce something in relation to the podcast soon yeah it's just been so great to diversify and I think it's what I've been looking for for a really long time as you guys know like a year and a half or something ago I made a video where I was like guys it's time to do some other [ __ ] I don't know if I can stream in the way that I have been the last like six years I feel like other platforms fit into my LIF style nowadays a little bit better and I think streaming and gaming still does fit in there it just doesn't have to be everything and I think this Middle Ground of like still streaming sometimes and doing other stuff aside from that is just perfect for me in this period of my life and who knows what's going to happen in 2 3 4 5 6 months maybe a game's going to come out that I'm obsessed with and I'll do that or maybe I'll find a passion elsewhere and I'll tunnel in on that I'm just allowing my the freedom to explore and I'm so grateful for the people who care to go on that Journey alongside me this is literally how I sit when I work this is a real POV currently working with cutie on something but it's secret and this is what I do usually in the later afternoon as a break I play valerant with my friends yipp coming Bay not in yet I have a dart if they do enter okay I'm darting oh oh very good you know what good nice 30 seconds left Spike down a someone's tree they have to plant you guys got to go plant got play with me don't wor last player standing guy's L dude pokey's going to get an ace or or what he's got to be H holy let's go there is no way oh my God oh my God oh my God I just played for 3 hours but it was kind of just what I needed now I'm going to sit down watch some TV and have a chill night and yeah signal on a quest chance massive